Monday, October 25, 2010
Firstly, I HAVEN'T UPDATED FOR SO LONG, WOW.
Second, my passions right now :
- Dancing,
- Acting
& - maybe singing.
Selena Gomez ;)
okay, chatting with Man<3. Earlier on today, we had free periods. 3 free periods! :D but first 2 periods there was a teacher sitting in. So! That last/3rd period of free class, me & Kid<3 OTP-ed. LOL. so yeah ^^, haha. but he went back to sleep BLABLABLA. Okay, i have like, 66 followers on my twitter ;) I have my very own iPhone 4. :) Bought it with my own hard work & effort of saving the money! What else? Having conflicts at home. DAMN FFF _|_
Listening to music on the iPhone & playing the comp. Having FREE time for a week. Obviously its a girls thing, right? -.- HAHA, k whatever. Had & having(hopefully not!) fights. But insyAllah everything'll be okay. :) Listening to JBiebs songs to make me happier! Sigh. Things are like irritating. LOLs. K, :P
Hello yuu<33. I love you babyarab! HEHE. I really enjoyed today. hoho! :>
Okay, enough posting for today? :D i hope i have more stories soon.
GOOD STORIES. :D HAHAHA.
okay, goodbye for nows. Love y'alls.
MWA; XOXOXO
♥ARI♥
what we could have been, 5:50 PM.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
so hey everyone. i'm back. on my aunt/cousin's lappy. AHEM, macbook ;)
Lol. Anyways, she made for me supper! HEHE. what else? YES! i'm deciding to either get an iPhone 3GS or a blackberry. :) Okay, what else? i have a ring! :O HAHA! What a joke. Baniaz only knows okay! ;) Okay, i don't really have anything much to post. Ex text messaged me, etc. Sigh. :) And then having a new crush now. I don't feel guilty for liking him now, okay, dearest "friend"/s. Cause you don't really deserve a guy like him. People just judge you, not me. Sorry. Anws, what else? :D gonna get my braces super soon. it'll be a "surrrrprise", i guess. Heh. Ex won't stop flirting with me. But, i know, you know. ;) Heh. Okay, going off now? Will update super soon when i can again. Remember! Tag here, wall/inbox/chat with me on Facebook. If you have my number, go ahead and text message ;)
Haha, that was just random but do so if you'd like to.
Okayokay,
XXO
what we could have been, 8:51 PM.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Okay, so hey everyone. It's been a long time since i last posted. Forgot to update and had other stuffs. Alright! Firstly, i'll be having my exams starting this coming week. Secondly, i'm trying to ignore all haters, etc cause they're not worth my time. What else? Won't be so active here nor Facebook. But will always be active on my Twitter, ofcourse. What else? OH! My twitter now has about 40 followers which i am SO happy about! I love them so much! And getting to know them more is even amazing. I have friends there from all over the world! From Amsterdam, to Australia, to Italia? And SO much more. They're AMAZING people.
Okay, so today i didn't go to school cause i ain't feeling well, etc. What else is there? Oh, things have been messy, but hey? I don't really care about those "bad stuffs" anymore. I'm looking more on the positive side of life. So some still ask whether i'm single, etc. Yes, i'm single and not looking at the moment. My heart is taken by someone. No one needs to know. Seriously though, not trying to be rude or anything. Alright, what else now? Haha. Right, had photography lesson yesterday. Which was super tiring yet good. That made my day. Alright, so today i went to get a haircut which turned out horrible. Will be clipping up my fringe and also my back, i'll be tie-ing ofcourse. Okay, besides that, i won't be active on my phone either! I just don't know why, but i'm always tired or i don't want to talk to anyone, etc. Okay, time to go off now.
Love you all loads, especially that someone.
Whatever most, do keep on leaving "tags" on my tagboard. I will reply. But no promises of how soon. And today, i won't be much active on the iPhone cause my bro's coming back, again. Alright, love ya'll. Take care.
♥♥
what we could have been, 4:54 PM.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Hey earthlings/earth people. Currently terribly sick but just posting up a small short post for you. Been thinking about many things. But mostly my dreaming career. First, i changed my nickname to Alyssa J♥ alright, peeps? Hehh. Secondly, been hanging out with a girlfriend that turns out to be my BFF♥ and that i never knew how great she could be. Third, missing many. Yeah, pretty much nothing. Yesterday was fun. I had this Mendaki kapoot thingy. Went there, made more friends :)) Haha. One girl whom i thought was gonna like, despise me or something, kept on smiling and staring at me. AWKWARD, but still, friendly. Couldn't help myself, grinned back. :DD that's me, my type of person. Right, body's aching cause of yesterday's activity = bowling. I was just releasing my anger. And there was one moment where i just "threw" the ball like, anyhow? Haha. And i actually striked! But i didn't realise cause i was too tired to turn back and at was the point of giving up in the game. So in the end, i was like, YAAAAYY! With the rest. It was HEE-LARIOUS. I also got to make new friends that i actually never knew i'd make. Meaning, it was a good experience, i guess. :)) Alright, so currently most of you should know that my fringe, is/are bangs right? I was thinking of cutting it like Hayley Williams'. So confusing! Oh, i had a dream about my ex crush too. HAHA. Hee-larious. Let's talk about it, kkays. :)
So, first thing first, i was walking towards the canteen i think. When i was searching for a table, his friend was at my side. I didn't notice at first. Then he started to chat with me. So he said, "Hey, you used to like ______ , right?" I replied, "Yeah, but he's taken now. Oh well.." The dude said, "Oh, well, he actually used to like you too." Feeling shocked in the dream i replied, "Oh really? Hah. That's too bad, i guess." LOLS. Sounds weird-ish. So, i've been thinking about un-private-ing my blog. Wait, no, i think imma only allow some people to read, meaning still keeping it private, just let me know if you wanna read it, and if i allow it, i'll invite you. If not, that's totally you're prob. HAHA. I'm different nowadays, some of you may say, yeah, it's totally true of when the Saggitarius's sign says that i'm a changing personality. So don't feel offended or anything. It's just, the way i am. And also cause i have my reasons for my actions. Alright, i guess that's all for today. Right! One more thing, Wait, two.
First, i'm gonna go and get my braces arrangements done this Thursday, so i won't be attending school and also it's my little annoying cousin's birthday. I just realized that the both of us are like, Ramona & Beezus. Which reminds me, that's my birthday present for her. She loves reading the books too. :))
Lastly, i'm having insane Bieber Fever♥♥. Haha. But i'm really horribly sick. Alright, chatting with my lovely love SasmitaLove on Ebuddy cause my MSN has probs. Alright, that's all for today.
Love ya'll. Take care & Peace out everyone. Xxo
♥♥
Alyssa J♥
what we could have been, 6:04 PM.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Hey all. Yeah, haven't been posting much in awhile. Anws, first thing first! Since starting/started on Monday of school, i've been having this Mendaki shit programme thing cause i din't go to school much. Anws, besides that, a god damn bloody cat scratched me. -,-"
So, ther's the cuts. Well, some of it. Other than that, i also got to eat my fav ice cream just earlier on too,
And, i miss those moments at this block,
Miss him loads. Too bad things couldn't work out between us two and all. Ouhhhhwell, wasn't our fate/destiny. Anws, today only ONE "something" made my day. AND THAT'S ALL.
Someone pinched my cheek furiously and said, (translated) "You're SO freaking cute and i'm so angry because of it!!" Haha. He himself is freaking adorbs, cute & hot. Love him, man. Too bad he's attached too. Anws, what else? Met/saw my lovely twin sister, Mimi Ola Zarifah ;)) Chatted with a few people and all. Currently having probs. Both personal and not too personal. Things ain't so great nowadays, but hey, life's SHIT. Sometimes bullshit too. HAHA. Well, i guess that's it.
Ta's. ♥
what we could have been, 5:43 PM.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Okay, so hey everyone. I din't go to school today. Feeling very nausea-tic/ic, hurl-y and giddy.
Anws, Ramona & Beezus the movie is gonna come out in like, 9days! :D Yay. Well, in this town probs about 10-11days. Or they might not show it at all. GRRR. :( Anws, i wanna watch that show.
Here's a latest "Big sister's guide" show thingy. :)) :
Alright, what else? Right! AJ♥ tweeted this about.. exactly 39minutes ago. :
"Scared a lady I didn't know in line at Ralphs cause she had the hiccups, apparently people don't like getting scared while shopping."
It made me laugh SO much. Hahaha! Anws, i've been missing someone i'm not supposed to be missing nor even thinking about since yesterday. So, nothing new. Phone's dead. So sad. No one asked me why i din't come and all. Pffft. Urghhhhh. Feeling giddy all over again. I think it's the heat in this room. Anws, i hope at least some person would text message me. Bored too.
Ouh, btw, i'm now watching Sonny With A Chance. It's a good show too. Hehh. Alrights, off for now.
♥s.
Peace out.
what we could have been, 2:28 PM.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Right right. Hey hey. So currently watching WOWP on Youtube. Not tweeting much though. So yesterday something happened. Only like, some people know. Anws, tomorrow one of my schoolmates that i didn't know would do *something* like that. Anws, so tomorrow, yeah. Right right. So Baniaz's text messaging me. Telling me that her teach's might put up a soccer group for girls only. But, i ain't so sure of it.. So nowadays i've kept on trying to do like, a "bump" on my head. Like, the hair you know? The ones that the LOW LIFES do when actually REAL PEOPLE invented and did it first? Yeah, been trying to do that but can't cause something's wrong with my hair. HAHA. Anws, i think i might wanna cut my fringe back to like, Hayley Williams. Then maybe style it like how she styled it in the Misery Business's Music Vid.
this one you can't really see. so luckily i've got another one! :D
So, yeah. Something like that. HAHA. But it'll look damn hee-larious on me because i've got black hair. Just waiting for me to graduate and all. Then, god willing, i shall get to die my hair like, red. Not crazy red. But like Ariana Grande's. Here's a pic of her with her new red hair ;
So that's Ariana Grande. And this is my idol ; Victoria Justice ! :
i have LOADS more photos of her, but i ain't posting it. Haha! Anws, what else? Hmmmm. Nothing new. Just a few more new secrets only some people know, blaablaablaa. Sighs. Really tired nowadays. School's sucky with all the studies and all. BAHH! D; What else? Lemme think. Right, So since I totally ♥♥ Victoria Justice & Ariana Grande, i made a new nickname for myself : Ariana Justice/ Ariana J. Also known as : "Lady Don't Know." It's an inside thing. Anw, currently my grandmum is letting me use her phone cause i miss using keypad. But i still miss my sony ericsson w595 the most. That phone has HELL LOADS of memories. I also do miss the sony ericsson w660i cause i din't really got the chance to use it that much cause of some stupid sim card technical probs. Anws, "wall chatting" with my latest TwinSisterLove = MasZarifah/Ari/Ifah. I think i like calling her Ari. It sounds, CUTE. And also it kinda matches with my new name too. ;) Ouhhhh, i wished i could die my hair like, chocolate-y brown. but my mum's definitely ain't allowing. And rebond it too, like Ariana Grande's but she said that she'd only allow me to do that once which is so hell pathetic/hopeless and mostly useless. URGH. Ouhhh, and i TOTALLY DESPISE pimples and not hate them! :@ Grrr. Ouhhh, and another thing, i'm in my cute little hello kitty boxers and a loose shirt. LOL. :D Just sayin' cause i felt like saying it. anws, nothing much else? Will update soon. Ta's. Much loves to all.
♥
Labels: AJ♥ ; Lady Don't Know.
what we could have been, 6:10 PM.
Friday, July 9, 2010
sup homies.
bored. so anws, here's my dp/pp on Facebook.
there are a few comments on it and all. so, BLAHBLAHBLAH. anws, i have about, 37 followers on Twitter. :{) i want more :D HEHE. anws, had some great good moments with ApynCh`. anws, gonna chat with my hubby lovely Adi. HAHA! We're not even bf-gf. ;D but, we have something going on la eyh. ;D HEHE. anws, life's been good. pretty awesome, i shall/might say. Anws, gonna miss Baniaz. :( well, it's just between the two of us. anws, Adi offline. PIG! -,-" GRRRR. anws, nothing much to post nowadays, so don't mind if they're are like, short posts. alrights, gotta go.
♥s you people,
♥♥♥♥s you, VJ♥
SUPER ♥♥♥♥s for Babylove AJ Forever♥
mwas. ♥
Labels: Start of something new
what we could have been, 5:49 PM.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Well hey all! Wow. I haven't posted in awhile, huh? Anws! :)
I had a blast today thnks to ApynCh`. We're like, kinda closer now. Things between some friends, well, complicated. Anws, chatting with Han Raihan. :P Aaahhh, missing many! ApynCh` knows. So does Mi. Anws, i'll be missing you dearest love Baniaz ))': and you know why. Gosh, i really have to start hanging loads with you. :'((
SO! My dreams and all now? :
to be exactly like Victoria Justice♥,
have AJ♥. Anws, nothing much to post nowadays. I wanna help out at Puerto Rico, if you're on my Facebook, you know. So nowadays just trying to do what i wanna do. Hehh. Readers, if you ever need a listening ear or someone to lean or cry a shoulder onto, i'm here fer you. ;) Anws, nothing else, i guess. Just really ubber tired from my Physical Ed lesson/period earlier on. Ouhh, and i don't feel like going to school tomorrow. The new day of the week to dread always, is on Thursdays now. Idky, but seriously, that day just, sucks. But i'm better at/in my attendance. Oke, enough chat i guess. Will try to update soon. Ouhh, and i'm not sure if i'm deleting my blog, you see. Cause i'm thinking to do that for my Facebook. Ouhh well, off now. Loves yous'. :{D
Labels: I'm your's.♥
what we could have been, 6:03 PM.
Monday, June 14, 2010
they're SO adorable!
my bro said he gave me back my shade (like Justin's *points above* shades) but can't find them.
oke, so now im currently RANDOMLY google-ing Justin Bieber on google! =D hahaha. yeahh, he's cute.(: anws, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6KxqWv8THQ&feature=channel that's a very funny photoshoot. i like the ending! hahaha! where someone pretended/playfully "whacked" him on the head. Hahaha. anws, let's upload some of his pics. :)
i am currently CRAVING for this phone. =D
this was during my annoying babygirl cousin Aisyah's burpdaey.
this was during my cousin/aunt's wedding.
those were a few old pics from last year.
so currently watching WOWP on youtube. really bored. hahaha. ouhhh, i dread for school to start. i'd just rather be home school-ed you know. it's so HELL much more easier. yeah, if i was able to do/done that, i'd find some time to meet up with the peeps that yknoww, alrightt, whatever, you people get my point. anw, I'M SO HE-LL HUNGRY. cause i'm fasting, you see. anw, i downloaded a few songs, copied and pasted them. anw, going off then. cyber world is just really pathetic now. except for Twitter =D it's my new bud. awesome. anw, byee.
Labels: new.
what we could have been, 6:11 PM.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
so here are those pics. its the dress that my cousin/aunt got for me. the dress that you readers read about a couple'a days/time ago. (: hope you guys like it/them. the pics are abit merepek, sory. HEHE.
alrightt, byees. (:
Labels: more summer/sundreses please.
what we could have been, 6:04 PM.
POSTS/UPDATES I DIDN'T GET THE CHANCE TO POST. :
040610 :
yay! life's getting suckier -,- F***! anw, bored youknow, during all this summer shit. i've been reading some parts of the book, 'The Last Song' that i had finished in two days. saya tak bangge, kks cause i always read books fast when i like that book. anw! its getting like, HELL loads annoying with the family. friends? HAH! nothing new. no messages, or whatever shit. Heck! anws, been messaging my one and only lovely darling dearest Iqaa for the past few days! =D hehe. currently chatting with my long lost kakak angkat! which one? the awesome one forever one laaa~ akak Zianah. (: hehe. ouhh, my hair's starting to grow, yknowws. =D so-the-happy. hahaha. my neck's gonna break soon too. cause i've been on the comp AWHILE. momma started to go to work today already. sighh. ); wish she didnt. but, i know, i know. sighhs! anw, BOREDBOREDBORED. ouhhhh! i can't take out 2009♥ . out of my head. and it's killing me inside. why? cause, here are the things that 2009♥ really meant to me about.
- I
- 081009
- 150809
- 230909
- moments with akak zianah )';
- moments with iqaa
- sharep sanchino.
- when junior and me were REAL close
- when mamat was pondan/adek/bestfriend/brother-to-always-have
- when adi and me had this weird r/s but friends
- when things weren't sucky like now? idk.
i miss these things. i miss 2009. i miss all these people. everyone did change. yes, i did change too. i changed because people changed. i changed because people treated and still do treat me differently. there was a quiz i did on facebook about "what does your birthday month mean?" apart of it said, 'changing personality'. which is true. i find myself changing oftenly. sometimes, too much. now, i've been sick for the couple of days. yeahh, trying not to eat cause im putting on some weight. whatever, anws.
040610 :
yay! life's getting suckier -,- F***! anw, bored youknow, during all this summer shit. i've been reading some parts of the book, 'The Last Song' that i had finished in two days. saya tak bangge, kks cause i always read books fast when i like that book. anw! its getting like, HELL loads annoying with the family. friends? HAH! nothing new. no messages, or whatever shit. Heck! anws, been messaging my one and only lovely darling dearest Iqaa for the past few days! =D hehe. currently chatting with my long lost kakak angkat! which one? the awesome one forever one laaa~ akak Zianah. (: hehe. ouhh, my hair's starting to grow, yknowws. =D so-the-happy. hahaha. my neck's gonna break soon too. cause i've been on the comp AWHILE. momma started to go to work today already. sighh. ); wish she didnt. but, i know, i know. sighhs! anw, BOREDBOREDBORED. ouhhhh! i can't take out 2009♥ . out of my head. and it's killing me inside. why? cause, here are the things that 2009♥ really meant to me about.
- I
- 081009
- 150809
- 230909
- moments with akak zianah )';
- moments with iqaa
- sharep sanchino.
- when junior and me were REAL close
- when mamat was pondan/adek/bestfriend/brother-to-always-have
- when adi and me had this weird r/s but friends
- when things weren't sucky like now? idk.
i miss these things. i miss 2009. i miss all these people. everyone did change. yes, i did change too. i changed because people changed. i changed because people treated and still do treat me differently. there was a quiz i did on facebook about "what does your birthday month mean?" apart of it said, 'changing personality'. which is true. i find myself changing oftenly. sometimes, too much. now, i've been sick for the couple of days. yeahh, trying not to eat cause im putting on some weight. whatever, anws.
Post on 050610 :
hey all. so how's the hols coming, huhs? anws, chatting with Juliet Nikora/Ann Juliet aka ; my 230909! =D hell, girl, you have NO IDEA how much i've missed you. anw, having an awesome time chatting with you. still rocking eyh? (: HAHAHA. we're chatting about this someone. says to his/her 'group' that i've got no life and all. hahaha! well, who's the one that doesn't have a life? copying my words, my 230909's styles? =D well, lazy to talk it out here. better gossiping it out with my 230909. so anws, bored. Momma, hear me, oke? i really want you to understand me. cause my heart's REALLY not to wearing it. if i go out with my friends or whoever, and not wear/take it out behind you, don't you think that it's pointless eventhough when you force me to wear it? i promise, Momma, i wont wear the clothes i'm not supposed to wear. i'd really just want you to hear me out here, understand, and give me the chance to let me somehow live the life that i somehow want. i wanna thank you too, for always being there for me and all. guy probs, sometimes family and always those pathetic assholes. yeah readeres, "friends". anw, today i went out with my cousin/aunt for an outing. she bought for me this pretty dress. its like a summer dress/sundress. its like, Selena Swift's. what's that? Selena and Taylor Swift together. hahaha. you guys can check it out on my Facebook profile pic. Ouhhhhh. she also got me this, Cookie monster necklace. its actually together with a pair of cookie monster earrings too! but, i aint using them yet.
Today's post ( 060610 ) :
Firstly, i wanna say congrats to "Abang" Rizal & Kak Syannazz for their first monthsary. (: anws, currently just gonna blog awhile. cause a few nights ago my momma went to get a cd i asked for. Valentine's Day. the movie. =D HEHH. so, yeahs. i wanna watch it later. before that, i wanna quickly rush to my cousin's/aunt's place to pass her some cash. anws, the hols are getting more like, boring. -,- so, will be having and planning outings with like, Baniaz? (: and a few others. idk. who ever wants to, i guess! a few days ago, somebody 'ajak' me lepak. hahaha. he's a guy from my past. ouhhhh, and I♥ chatted. on phone, not net. cause we stopped contacting for such a long time. anws, REALLY upset about Sharep Sanchino! cause we lost contact already! )'; we got to know each other through friendster, then he added me on my old email add. then we passed numbers and all. then, we got to know each other, blaa3. then noww, i can't log in to that bloody page because of some stupid thing. they said i had to verify what shit thing. the thing is, i deleted the old account cause it got hacked. F*** it man! Anws, ytd's chat with 230909 was awesome. HEE-LARIOUS sia, we made fun of this/that someone and the 'gang' or something. but mostly, we made fun of the person. k lah, 230909 made more jokes than i did. she's better ma. my twin ma, kan! thnk God SO HELL badly for us not fighting anymore. HAHAHA. anw, randomly listening to Justin Bieber's songs. Hahhh. BOREDOM TO HELL~ (: anw, i wanna go out! and AmierMonyet, one of my classmates, messaged me telling me that tomorrow their having a class party at one of my other classmate's, Brent's condominium. at 11am. very stupid kan! tomorrow the thing, then today tell 'everyone'. so the clever! UGH -,- Hahaha. k, whateverS to that. LOL. :P so tonight, there'll be a trailer. my "soulmate" adr taw! xP HAHAHAHAHAA! yeahh, Taylor Lautner. FOOO! Hothothot. =D Cutecutecute. MINEMINEMINE! xP Wekkwekkwekk! =D that's 150809's so-called favourite word now. Hahaha. it's adorbale the way he uses it. anw, i really want my momma to hear me out and all. )'; anw, i wanna chat to that BaniazDarl. Hahaha. but then idk what to chat about! =D so pandai. anw, she's offline noww. chatting to Akak again. Yeahh, akak Zianah♥ =D anws, so bored, yknows. Hehh. Ouhhhhhhhh! Jaden Smith's hot. and cute. =D hahaha. i'm reading the Eclipse book now. yeahh, the third book of the Twilight Saga. just reading it again. the movie's coming out soon anyway. by the 1st of next month, if i'm not wrong. (: i wish i lived in the LA's, yknw. no, not that stupid Language Arts sub. -,- HAHAHA! but Los Angeles. (: it's my dream to stay and live there. i wanna be like those teen celebs. like Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift, JBros and all. takkan i wanna give you all those people kankankan? hahaha, k, merepek. :P anws, i guess the post is long and merepek enough! i shall stop posting/updating here. will upload some photos and all. (:
this is quite an old photo. it was taken a couple of weeks ago. credits to ApynChowderLOVE! ;)
i'll post the dress's pics in another post, alrightt? having some probs with the blog, luhs! :/ anws, toodles peeps!
♥s to you people always! HEHH~
mwacks to all. :* hehehe. i love Jake♥! you peeps don't need to knoww who. (;
Labels: "never say never."
what we could have been, 5:59 PM.
Monday, May 24, 2010
i miss :
- memories of last year.
- friends that were once my "sisters" (who accepted who i was, who loved me for who i was, who just wanted me.)
- people that onced treated me how i wanted to be treated.
- those moments when i was accepted for who i was once.
- when 230909 was still "together"
- when 081009 existed.
- the time where i had to sit with the boys at the ending of last year.
- where PSHHK existed.
- where i had no prolems, when my life didn't suck like this fucking much.
- when people loved me for who i was.
- my long hair.
- my moments with Bby Eera.
- my moments with Bby Eera.
mostly, i just miss everything about last year. people changed. yes, i changed too. but now, i'm like, being treated like FUCK. yeah, FUCK. i just wished that things would be how it once was. where everyone could just be who we wanted to be. where & when everyone just accepted you for who you are no matter what. i miss everything about the ending of last year. why did things have to turn out this way, why? :'( i hope that i get to change back into the same girl i was then. OR if i could, better. god, please help me. i regret my wrong doings that i've been making & doing all this while. please, help me. :'(
another chance? OR is it that there's no more hope? :'(
Labels: changes hurt people.
what we could have been, 7:25 PM.
Friday, April 30, 2010
this is my reply for Sasi's post on her blog , i guess .
firstly , i don't know what to write here . so , i'll just say what i said on Facebook .
Dearest ,though now we keep on fighting nd all .Firstly i wanna say to you ,you can say many hatred things .but the only thing that i'll remember is those AWESOME moments i had with you . ♥
i mean it . :'( i know i made you cry . im sory i made you do that . please don't . all i ever wanted , was for nothing to come between us . i never knew that by all my selfish acts , this would have happen . i'm really sory . here i am too , crying , saying this . because , i really can't bear to do this to you . making you hate me nd all . i'm really sory i made things this way . i know , my apology means nothing to you know . but deep in my heart , no matter what you say , said , or will say about me , i will never stop loving you , SISTER . you were the sister that i first had when i was going through INSANE times . yes , VERY INSANE moments . insane hell moments . you were the one that stood up for me , here , in my very own blog . you were the one that did most of the happiness i had when other people couldn't . you were like , more than a sister . you were the person that i needed in my life . nd now , you're gone . nothing left . now , all i can do is just think about those times i had so much fun with you . those stupid retarded things we did . all those things that we did . now , they just disappeared . there's only emptiness in me . i passed by your tagboard . i saw , what Pris "tagged" at you . saying that thnks , for being there when she had her messes nd all . honestly , that made me cry even more . i really forgot the reason what we're fighting about . i remember . but i don't want to . cause , all i want to think about is those happy awesome moments . i want us to stop what's happening . ouhh , remember that time i got scolded by Bulldog ? (': the time me & Pris were being retarded at Toy'r'us ? the days that we gossiped alot ? i really laughed at it , now remembering it . crying more , too . Sas , i just wanna say , the decision is now your's . i really can't do anything anymore . you said that if i was gonna say sory nd all , it'd be a waste of your time nd all . but i want you to know , that i'll never stop loving you no matter what . ever since the day i met you , the day we became sisters nd all , it made me even love you more . i will never , i repeat , NEVER forget everything that you have done for & to me . i love you , sister . FOREVER in my ♥ . i mean it madly .
Dearest ,though now we keep on fighting nd all .Firstly i wanna say to you ,you can say many hatred things .but the only thing that i'll remember is those AWESOME moments i had with you . ♥
i mean it . :'( i know i made you cry . im sory i made you do that . please don't . all i ever wanted , was for nothing to come between us . i never knew that by all my selfish acts , this would have happen . i'm really sory . here i am too , crying , saying this . because , i really can't bear to do this to you . making you hate me nd all . i'm really sory i made things this way . i know , my apology means nothing to you know . but deep in my heart , no matter what you say , said , or will say about me , i will never stop loving you , SISTER . you were the sister that i first had when i was going through INSANE times . yes , VERY INSANE moments . insane hell moments . you were the one that stood up for me , here , in my very own blog . you were the one that did most of the happiness i had when other people couldn't . you were like , more than a sister . you were the person that i needed in my life . nd now , you're gone . nothing left . now , all i can do is just think about those times i had so much fun with you . those stupid retarded things we did . all those things that we did . now , they just disappeared . there's only emptiness in me . i passed by your tagboard . i saw , what Pris "tagged" at you . saying that thnks , for being there when she had her messes nd all . honestly , that made me cry even more . i really forgot the reason what we're fighting about . i remember . but i don't want to . cause , all i want to think about is those happy awesome moments . i want us to stop what's happening . ouhh , remember that time i got scolded by Bulldog ? (': the time me & Pris were being retarded at Toy'r'us ? the days that we gossiped alot ? i really laughed at it , now remembering it . crying more , too . Sas , i just wanna say , the decision is now your's . i really can't do anything anymore . you said that if i was gonna say sory nd all , it'd be a waste of your time nd all . but i want you to know , that i'll never stop loving you no matter what . ever since the day i met you , the day we became sisters nd all , it made me even love you more . i will never , i repeat , NEVER forget everything that you have done for & to me . i love you , sister . FOREVER in my ♥ . i mean it madly .
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what we could have been, 5:20 PM.
Monday, April 26, 2010
i lost my mood for a couple of times today. but i didn't show it much. anyway, today, i guess i could say that things did light up ABIT for me. i had loads of fun with PSHHK earlier on during recess ^^, must do again, bebs! heheh. i remember i kena "scolded" -.- *glares at Sas* :D hahah. anyway, during Maths, message2! (: messaged with him nd Adi -.- so after school, stayed back for extra class ^^, i'm finally studying. like, revising. heheh. so, then wanted to go to Blue Sea. but the shop was closed. so then went to MacD's. had another Chocolate Sundae. well, Hot Fudge sundae. heheh. so then headed home! got crushed in the bus :/ hummm. currently doing what? (: painting my toenails black. yeahh, cleaned the yellow one off already. ouhh, i had my middle finger on the right hand, right? yeahh, i left on the yellow nail polish there nd didn't get caught. now i have one black nail painted. on the left hand ^^, heheh. anyway, getting bored! (: on Facebook, someone posted something on my wall. it kinda made my day. Lol :P anyway, playing songs on my phone instead of the comp. really random -.- :D hahah. anyway, currently not chatting with anyone. so, in class just now, during the extra class, (it was science, btw) ^^, one of my classmates. the ones that i don't much like. especially this one that i'mma bout to say his name. yeahh, he's a guy. well, the person's a guy. he likes to spread rumors about me-.- anyway, today, he surprised me. he said to me, (because i had an unhappy face) , "why? are you angry with me?" *shakes head* he replies, "since last week you angry with me." "really?" "yeahh" so i kept quiet. then he said, "what's wrong?" *keeps quiet still* he says, "yknow, what ever problems you have now, i know that you'll be able to solve them. anyways, i'm having probs too, oke. just chill" *smiles* i was shocked. felt like my jaw dropped-.- hahah! (: anyway, i smiled abit. i said, "oke, thnks" hahah. i can't get that thought outta my mind :/ hummmm. currently playing games on Facebook ^^, heheh. blog hopped awhile earlier on. hummmm. exams coming soon D; danngggg. ohwell, good luck to you all, aytes? ;) heheh. ouhh, today's AmierMonyet's burpdaeyy (: wished him through Facebook alreadyy ^^, heheh. love that Monyet. anyway, gonna just hang at the comp for awhile. later gonna have tuition :/ sighhhs. btw btw, i'll be having this Mendaki Youth-In-Action thingy! :/ it's kinda fun & kinda sucky. mostly, i ain't liking my group. well, cause there's 2 people i'm not so happy with. anyway, at least adr Fafa , huh ? sighhs. just hope life's for me will be alright. :/
EDIT ; EDIT !
heheh. i just remembered ! while going home, Adi, Azai, Amier & Achap was walking behind, infront, side & side. LOL. hahah! well, cause they were playing around laa-dee-laa-dee-laahh :D heheh! can't stop giggling thinking back about it. so, then while walking-hahahahah- , all of a sudden Adi walked next to me. then he said , "Hudaa migraine~ , Hudaa migraine~" hahah. singing eyh, singing xP LOL. anyway, then about that. then there was a joke between all of us there. hahah. then before Adi walked next to me for awhile righhhht, me nd Mi was walking. then , all of a sudden, he squeezed through us. i tell youuuu, it was soooo heelarious nd cute. hahahah! xD anyway, so then we went home laa-dee-laa-dee-laaahhh? (: oke, i think that's about it. i love my babyboys & babygirls! they're theee best :D . forever in my heart , babys`. ♥
EDIT ; EDIT !
heheh. i just remembered ! while going home, Adi, Azai, Amier & Achap was walking behind, infront, side & side. LOL. hahah! well, cause they were playing around laa-dee-laa-dee-laahh :D heheh! can't stop giggling thinking back about it. so, then while walking-hahahahah- , all of a sudden Adi walked next to me. then he said , "Hudaa migraine~ , Hudaa migraine~" hahah. singing eyh, singing xP LOL. anyway, then about that. then there was a joke between all of us there. hahah. then before Adi walked next to me for awhile righhhht, me nd Mi was walking. then , all of a sudden, he squeezed through us. i tell youuuu, it was soooo heelarious nd cute. hahahah! xD anyway, so then we went home laa-dee-laa-dee-laaahhh? (: oke, i think that's about it. i love my babyboys & babygirls! they're theee best :D . forever in my heart , babys`. ♥
♥ i think i'm in love :P ♥
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what we could have been, 4:52 PM.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
hellow! oke, firstly, on ma' tagboard, imma' ignore. :D haha. lol. anyway, been having bad, good nd oke days. today, was like F***! a little bit only, teacher look at me. nd most of the times, it's not me that's talking! F*** you, teacherS! nd do i look like i care if you're gonna call my parents what shit? -.- no! if you're gonna make me expelled, ETC, go ahead! i dont care :D haha. buto! anyway, today sucked manymanymany. P.E Lesson, cried. lucky ApynChowder & Mark was there. haha. they comforted me. hehh. anyway, Mark, must last long hor! with her. (: treasure her. muchmuchmuch! so, there were times that between me nd Adi, nd me nd Achap. we lately didnt talk much. haha. just kept on getting mad at each other. but today, during LA, cause Sharon didnt came, so we all KECOH. ubber KECOH -.- hahah! so then we did alotta crazy things nd all. oke, then, we did work, blaablaablaa. after school, did some stuff, HOME. haha. then while i was watching my teeteeh just now, i fell asleep! now, playing comp. hahah! :D good way to keep me awake. ouhh, i'm sick, btw ! :D haha. so, then i lovee PSHHK! heheh. miss them too! haha. manymanymany memories, peeps! anyway, things between me nd Mi are getting muchmuchmuch more crazier! but also muchmuchmuch more busier for us. especially for Mi. with her CCA, etc. really pity her. well, as for me, the usual, but worser. this is what Mi said to me : "this is what you've felt since just now. *starts counting with fingers* angry, laugh, cry, angry, laugh. what next?" then she laugh by herself. hahah! anyway, things happened today. heh. but, what to do? currently chatting with SasBabyDoll now! heheh. i love her loads, yknow! she's my beloved sister. always have been there for me, whenever i needed her. always there to give me advice. always there to be my shoulder when i cry. well, when Mi's busy, or not there. *heheh, maknenek jangan ler majuk KER marah. :P* anyway , i just wanna say, i ♥ her. forever nd always, like i promise her. Ouhh, nd through thick nd thin, she's always been with me. not a true friend, but a SISTER. not just a SISTER. but the most beloved, amazing, nd mostly one of a kind sister. BE JEALOUS :P anyway, i ♥ you , [S]asi. please dont be mad OR irritated. :'(
I ♥ YOU
Labels: I really shouldn't love you but i can't seem to let you go♥
what we could have been, 7:13 PM.
Friday, April 16, 2010
wello peeps! haven't been posting in awhile. didnt want to today, actually. but am so :) haha! anyway, i guess things are working out between me nd him now? haven't gotten the chance to talk & meet him. but we kept on messaging just now. so, idontknow :o . anyway, so he said he had a dream about me nd all. sighh. i had one too. but both dreams were different. i won't say what was the dream :) hehh! so, currently posting & uploading a few photos on Facebook! tagging peeps too. hehh. sighhh. i think i'm fallin' for him again. sighhhs! D; but ohwell. boredom! so, on Wednesday & Thursday, spent the days with Sasi, Hema & Priscilla! (: thnks alot, Darls! heheh. cause Mi went for camp. dangg. D; but she's back today! :) but has training again! D; what bummers, right, peeps? sighhs. anyway, i wanna thank Sasi, Hema & Pris for everything! so today, did nothing much. but i did well for my arts, for me. :) i paid attention to my work though, not the teacher :) anyway, chatted with Pris & Sasi. sighhh. god, i miss him. nd to Bby Eera, thnks SO much. i ♥ you! thnks for helping me with him, well, EVERYTHING that you've done. i really ♥ you ubber much! :') oooh~ yay! i just got "barkat jumaat". i'm sory to the non-malay peeps reading. haha. i dont know how to say it in english! hmmm. :) eventhough it's only $2, it's still money. hehe! nd now i'm eating a banana. hahah! :P oh, my hair is in two. like, two ponytails, yknow? hehh. :) anyway, i'm gonna post up some photos here, alright? :) it's from today's. enjoy, Darls.
i miss this :')
the thing on our heads were necklaces, actually. haha :)
"i believe in love. because, i love you."
so there are the pics! there's another pic i ain't uploading yet. maybe a next time. hehh! *i have my reasons* . ahem. familiar, much? :) anyway, til' next time, adios peeps.
i ♥ you
`Selena Elliyann ; Dudette
what's meant to be, will be. ♥
Labels: healing heart?
what we could have been, 5:21 PM.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
♥ " Beyond words, I can not imagine what life is like without you. Your love is like a dream that is really hard to believe. Are you sure that you can really forget that girl? I really love you, for real, but is not it? This time, it's really hard to believe. Cause I'm young and weak to me too often fall into traps. How can a guy like you love a girl like me? " ♥
♥ I've fallen in love many times,but the best was falling in love with YOU ♥ .
haha .i love taking &making these types of lines . there really fun (: haha .
so i wanna say , ♥ i'm gonna start to avoid you . to keep things better between us . because i know that this is the only way for us . `im sory . though i love you , though this is wrong , i have to do this . ♥
♥ i love you . ♥
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what we could have been, 6:59 PM.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
ohh. so looks like the blog menu's are abit different. hmm. so over the weekend, i've been messaging with Bby Eera (: hehe. oke, then i dont wanna elaborate about some things. anyway, today was SportsDay (: kinda boring, but much more better than last year's. so, i hanged with the boys. HA-HA. to Hafiz, thnks bro ! cause yesterday, i went to cut my hair, nd it turned out kinda bad, for me. but when kinda a lot of people asked me to let it down (cause i tied my hair), they said it was oke, it suited me & i looked nice (: thnk u , ppl ! hehe. so then i tied back again nd all. so then, had a few jokes nd all. dah, finish SportsDay. haha. so what else? merayap awhile :D hehe ! then went to shop for some of my things . then kept going here nd there. bought some things, went to the MacD's @ ApynChowder's place there. @ T-Mart there, yknow ? (: yeah , we went there. saw Hannah nd family. haha. so salam-ed them , talked to them awhile .went to eat . then ! i ordered coffee ! the frappe`. hehe. frappe` mocha ? (: haha .so then went to play at a playground near ApynCh's place . so then , bus-ed to inter , bus-ed back home . during that , fell sick -.- like wanna vomit D; me & Mi think its the coffee . ish ! oke , so i just wanna say thanks to those who said my hair was alright nd all . ahhaha ! many jokes . thnks . to Hafiz , chill about the disqualification thing , alright ? well , its his fault . what to do . chill deyh , bro (: oke , HA-HA . to Achap & Adi ? (: yeah , thnks guys ! you guys made me laugh nd all during lesson times . like on Friday & Monday ? thnks alryte , boys ? (: i lubyou , bros ! (: haha . Achap's my Kechap ! my CUTE CUTE kechap . LOL xD anyway , so recently , been messaging alot with Bby Eera & all . yeah , we're twins :D haha ! anyway , she *AHEM* "helped" me nd someone get closer ? haha . well , i have nothing to say . haha . just saying thnks many many . HEHE . x) oke , then there was the part during the SportsDay , i really liked , maybe even LOVED the band performance ! it was AWESOME :D haha . then there was a part where they danced "Nobody". the song ? yeah , the dance steps . yeah , the chorus . haha . it was ADORABLE ! (: oke , then headed home . HEHE . kinda enjoyed today . hehh . so , i had some fun ! nd ! surpisingly , i didnt loose my voice :D hehe . oke , so here are some photos (:
in classes first ? (:
this is my Achap (;
SportsDay (:
[S]asi & [S]noopy forever (; lubyou always !
Achap (; CUTE right ? Hehe .
so unglam , right ? ):
ApynCh` said this was cute . to me , it isnt ):
<3
what we could have been, 6:10 PM.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
hey everyone! :) mmm.. so today i did my homework and all. blaablaa. :) i made a new friend. Deeqa Natasha :) hello dear, i know your reading. do tag :) thanks. haaa
so, the both of us have two things in common. :)
1) we both know Adib ( and according to her, he's a *weirdo! haha! )
2) we both LOVE Demi Lovato!
haha. anyway, looks like i have a new nickname again! well, a name. cause i don't use my name? awkward. okay, so looks like more friend drama, and im upset and ubber sad that this year on the first day on school, Monday i'm a loner. ohwell, :( booos to me.
wish me luck that beloved true friends are there for me always :)
love you all
xoxo
Demzz<3
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what we could have been, 5:36 PM.
Friday, December 25, 2009
merry christmas to all reading!
hello everyone! it's christmas! and! i've done nothing much today. hahaha. just text, watched christmas shows! :D those are my favourites during and on christmas day! :) anywayyyyyyyy.. i cant wait for beloved dear role model to come back :D ! hahahahaaa. anyway, im sooo ubber bored D:
so, to everyone out there!,
meeeerrrrrrrrryyyyyyy christmaaaaaas
:)
monkey<3 - the light that lights every dark corner in my stupid life :)
shh!
monkey<3 - the light that lights every dark corner in my stupid life :)
shh!
Labels: christmas
what we could have been, 9:02 PM.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
hey everyone! im ubber happy now! i've been smiling all night :D hhahahah. thanks to who? IMRAN! hahahahah! okay, then today me and abang haq were chatting. haiyooo. immatures and ammatures! god, you people arhh! hahhahah! :D
okay, so i just went to pray. having abit of problems with my family here. but, sighs. just try to get on with it i guess. thanks to someone who has been texting me all night long ( okay, not really, still! ) hahah. :)
hahahaha. it's been ubber fun! :D
well, im gonna head off now. need to layan that guy :D ahhahaha :D wokie, write soon!
love you :D
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what we could have been, 2:13 PM.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
" Yes, I know that, too. But. . . when i left you, Bella, I left you bleeding.Jacob was the one to stitch you back up again. That was bound to leave its mark - on both of you. I'm not sure those kinds of stitches dissolve on their own. I can't blame either one of you for something I made necessary. I may gain forgiveness, but that doesn't let me escape the consequences. "
I could feel his anger as his mouth discovered my passive resistance. One hand moved to the nape of my neck, twisting into a fist around the roots of my hair. The other hand grabbed roughly at my shoulder, shaking me, then dragging me to him. His hand continued down my arm, finding my wrist and pulling my arm around his neck. I left it there, my hand still tightly balled up, unsure how far I would go in my desperation to keep him alive. All the while his lips, disconcertingly soft and warm, tried to force a response out of mine.
For one brief, never-ending second, an entirely different path expanded behind the lids of my tear-wet eyes. As if I were looking through the filter of Jacob's thoughts, I could see exactly what was going on to give up, exactly what this new self-knowledge would not save me from losing. I could see Charlie and Renee mixed into a strange collage with Billy and Sam and La Push. I could see years passing, and meaning something as they passed, changing me. I could see the enormous red-brown wolf that I loved, always standing as protector as if I needed him. For the tiniest fragment of that second, I saw the bobbing heads of two small, black-haired children, running away from me into the familiar forest. When they disappeared, they took the rest of the vision with them....
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what we could have been, 11:36 PM.
