Friday, April 30, 2010
this is my reply for Sasi's post on her blog , i guess .
firstly , i don't know what to write here . so , i'll just say what i said on Facebook .
Dearest ,though now we keep on fighting nd all .Firstly i wanna say to you ,you can say many hatred things .but the only thing that i'll remember is those AWESOME moments i had with you . ♥
i mean it . :'( i know i made you cry . im sory i made you do that . please don't . all i ever wanted , was for nothing to come between us . i never knew that by all my selfish acts , this would have happen . i'm really sory . here i am too , crying , saying this . because , i really can't bear to do this to you . making you hate me nd all . i'm really sory i made things this way . i know , my apology means nothing to you know . but deep in my heart , no matter what you say , said , or will say about me , i will never stop loving you , SISTER . you were the sister that i first had when i was going through INSANE times . yes , VERY INSANE moments . insane hell moments . you were the one that stood up for me , here , in my very own blog . you were the one that did most of the happiness i had when other people couldn't . you were like , more than a sister . you were the person that i needed in my life . nd now , you're gone . nothing left . now , all i can do is just think about those times i had so much fun with you . those stupid retarded things we did . all those things that we did . now , they just disappeared . there's only emptiness in me . i passed by your tagboard . i saw , what Pris "tagged" at you . saying that thnks , for being there when she had her messes nd all . honestly , that made me cry even more . i really forgot the reason what we're fighting about . i remember . but i don't want to . cause , all i want to think about is those happy awesome moments . i want us to stop what's happening . ouhh , remember that time i got scolded by Bulldog ? (': the time me & Pris were being retarded at Toy'r'us ? the days that we gossiped alot ? i really laughed at it , now remembering it . crying more , too . Sas , i just wanna say , the decision is now your's . i really can't do anything anymore . you said that if i was gonna say sory nd all , it'd be a waste of your time nd all . but i want you to know , that i'll never stop loving you no matter what . ever since the day i met you , the day we became sisters nd all , it made me even love you more . i will never , i repeat , NEVER forget everything that you have done for & to me . i love you , sister . FOREVER in my ♥ . i mean it madly .
Dearest ,though now we keep on fighting nd all .Firstly i wanna say to you ,you can say many hatred things .but the only thing that i'll remember is those AWESOME moments i had with you . ♥
i mean it . :'( i know i made you cry . im sory i made you do that . please don't . all i ever wanted , was for nothing to come between us . i never knew that by all my selfish acts , this would have happen . i'm really sory . here i am too , crying , saying this . because , i really can't bear to do this to you . making you hate me nd all . i'm really sory i made things this way . i know , my apology means nothing to you know . but deep in my heart , no matter what you say , said , or will say about me , i will never stop loving you , SISTER . you were the sister that i first had when i was going through INSANE times . yes , VERY INSANE moments . insane hell moments . you were the one that stood up for me , here , in my very own blog . you were the one that did most of the happiness i had when other people couldn't . you were like , more than a sister . you were the person that i needed in my life . nd now , you're gone . nothing left . now , all i can do is just think about those times i had so much fun with you . those stupid retarded things we did . all those things that we did . now , they just disappeared . there's only emptiness in me . i passed by your tagboard . i saw , what Pris "tagged" at you . saying that thnks , for being there when she had her messes nd all . honestly , that made me cry even more . i really forgot the reason what we're fighting about . i remember . but i don't want to . cause , all i want to think about is those happy awesome moments . i want us to stop what's happening . ouhh , remember that time i got scolded by Bulldog ? (': the time me & Pris were being retarded at Toy'r'us ? the days that we gossiped alot ? i really laughed at it , now remembering it . crying more , too . Sas , i just wanna say , the decision is now your's . i really can't do anything anymore . you said that if i was gonna say sory nd all , it'd be a waste of your time nd all . but i want you to know , that i'll never stop loving you no matter what . ever since the day i met you , the day we became sisters nd all , it made me even love you more . i will never , i repeat , NEVER forget everything that you have done for & to me . i love you , sister . FOREVER in my ♥ . i mean it madly .
Labels: we'll jump and fall together ♥
what we could have been, 5:20 PM.
Monday, April 26, 2010
i lost my mood for a couple of times today. but i didn't show it much. anyway, today, i guess i could say that things did light up ABIT for me. i had loads of fun with PSHHK earlier on during recess ^^, must do again, bebs! heheh. i remember i kena "scolded" -.- *glares at Sas* :D hahah. anyway, during Maths, message2! (: messaged with him nd Adi -.- so after school, stayed back for extra class ^^, i'm finally studying. like, revising. heheh. so, then wanted to go to Blue Sea. but the shop was closed. so then went to MacD's. had another Chocolate Sundae. well, Hot Fudge sundae. heheh. so then headed home! got crushed in the bus :/ hummm. currently doing what? (: painting my toenails black. yeahh, cleaned the yellow one off already. ouhh, i had my middle finger on the right hand, right? yeahh, i left on the yellow nail polish there nd didn't get caught. now i have one black nail painted. on the left hand ^^, heheh. anyway, getting bored! (: on Facebook, someone posted something on my wall. it kinda made my day. Lol :P anyway, playing songs on my phone instead of the comp. really random -.- :D hahah. anyway, currently not chatting with anyone. so, in class just now, during the extra class, (it was science, btw) ^^, one of my classmates. the ones that i don't much like. especially this one that i'mma bout to say his name. yeahh, he's a guy. well, the person's a guy. he likes to spread rumors about me-.- anyway, today, he surprised me. he said to me, (because i had an unhappy face) , "why? are you angry with me?" *shakes head* he replies, "since last week you angry with me." "really?" "yeahh" so i kept quiet. then he said, "what's wrong?" *keeps quiet still* he says, "yknow, what ever problems you have now, i know that you'll be able to solve them. anyways, i'm having probs too, oke. just chill" *smiles* i was shocked. felt like my jaw dropped-.- hahah! (: anyway, i smiled abit. i said, "oke, thnks" hahah. i can't get that thought outta my mind :/ hummmm. currently playing games on Facebook ^^, heheh. blog hopped awhile earlier on. hummmm. exams coming soon D; danngggg. ohwell, good luck to you all, aytes? ;) heheh. ouhh, today's AmierMonyet's burpdaeyy (: wished him through Facebook alreadyy ^^, heheh. love that Monyet. anyway, gonna just hang at the comp for awhile. later gonna have tuition :/ sighhhs. btw btw, i'll be having this Mendaki Youth-In-Action thingy! :/ it's kinda fun & kinda sucky. mostly, i ain't liking my group. well, cause there's 2 people i'm not so happy with. anyway, at least adr Fafa , huh ? sighhs. just hope life's for me will be alright. :/
EDIT ; EDIT !
heheh. i just remembered ! while going home, Adi, Azai, Amier & Achap was walking behind, infront, side & side. LOL. hahah! well, cause they were playing around laa-dee-laa-dee-laahh :D heheh! can't stop giggling thinking back about it. so, then while walking-hahahahah- , all of a sudden Adi walked next to me. then he said , "Hudaa migraine~ , Hudaa migraine~" hahah. singing eyh, singing xP LOL. anyway, then about that. then there was a joke between all of us there. hahah. then before Adi walked next to me for awhile righhhht, me nd Mi was walking. then , all of a sudden, he squeezed through us. i tell youuuu, it was soooo heelarious nd cute. hahahah! xD anyway, so then we went home laa-dee-laa-dee-laaahhh? (: oke, i think that's about it. i love my babyboys & babygirls! they're theee best :D . forever in my heart , babys`. ♥
EDIT ; EDIT !
heheh. i just remembered ! while going home, Adi, Azai, Amier & Achap was walking behind, infront, side & side. LOL. hahah! well, cause they were playing around laa-dee-laa-dee-laahh :D heheh! can't stop giggling thinking back about it. so, then while walking-hahahahah- , all of a sudden Adi walked next to me. then he said , "Hudaa migraine~ , Hudaa migraine~" hahah. singing eyh, singing xP LOL. anyway, then about that. then there was a joke between all of us there. hahah. then before Adi walked next to me for awhile righhhht, me nd Mi was walking. then , all of a sudden, he squeezed through us. i tell youuuu, it was soooo heelarious nd cute. hahahah! xD anyway, so then we went home laa-dee-laa-dee-laaahhh? (: oke, i think that's about it. i love my babyboys & babygirls! they're theee best :D . forever in my heart , babys`. ♥
♥ i think i'm in love :P ♥
Labels: sighhhhs.
what we could have been, 4:52 PM.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
hellow! oke, firstly, on ma' tagboard, imma' ignore. :D haha. lol. anyway, been having bad, good nd oke days. today, was like F***! a little bit only, teacher look at me. nd most of the times, it's not me that's talking! F*** you, teacherS! nd do i look like i care if you're gonna call my parents what shit? -.- no! if you're gonna make me expelled, ETC, go ahead! i dont care :D haha. buto! anyway, today sucked manymanymany. P.E Lesson, cried. lucky ApynChowder & Mark was there. haha. they comforted me. hehh. anyway, Mark, must last long hor! with her. (: treasure her. muchmuchmuch! so, there were times that between me nd Adi, nd me nd Achap. we lately didnt talk much. haha. just kept on getting mad at each other. but today, during LA, cause Sharon didnt came, so we all KECOH. ubber KECOH -.- hahah! so then we did alotta crazy things nd all. oke, then, we did work, blaablaablaa. after school, did some stuff, HOME. haha. then while i was watching my teeteeh just now, i fell asleep! now, playing comp. hahah! :D good way to keep me awake. ouhh, i'm sick, btw ! :D haha. so, then i lovee PSHHK! heheh. miss them too! haha. manymanymany memories, peeps! anyway, things between me nd Mi are getting muchmuchmuch more crazier! but also muchmuchmuch more busier for us. especially for Mi. with her CCA, etc. really pity her. well, as for me, the usual, but worser. this is what Mi said to me : "this is what you've felt since just now. *starts counting with fingers* angry, laugh, cry, angry, laugh. what next?" then she laugh by herself. hahah! anyway, things happened today. heh. but, what to do? currently chatting with SasBabyDoll now! heheh. i love her loads, yknow! she's my beloved sister. always have been there for me, whenever i needed her. always there to give me advice. always there to be my shoulder when i cry. well, when Mi's busy, or not there. *heheh, maknenek jangan ler majuk KER marah. :P* anyway , i just wanna say, i ♥ her. forever nd always, like i promise her. Ouhh, nd through thick nd thin, she's always been with me. not a true friend, but a SISTER. not just a SISTER. but the most beloved, amazing, nd mostly one of a kind sister. BE JEALOUS :P anyway, i ♥ you , [S]asi. please dont be mad OR irritated. :'(
I ♥ YOU
Labels: I really shouldn't love you but i can't seem to let you go♥
what we could have been, 7:13 PM.
Friday, April 16, 2010
wello peeps! haven't been posting in awhile. didnt want to today, actually. but am so :) haha! anyway, i guess things are working out between me nd him now? haven't gotten the chance to talk & meet him. but we kept on messaging just now. so, idontknow :o . anyway, so he said he had a dream about me nd all. sighh. i had one too. but both dreams were different. i won't say what was the dream :) hehh! so, currently posting & uploading a few photos on Facebook! tagging peeps too. hehh. sighhh. i think i'm fallin' for him again. sighhhs! D; but ohwell. boredom! so, on Wednesday & Thursday, spent the days with Sasi, Hema & Priscilla! (: thnks alot, Darls! heheh. cause Mi went for camp. dangg. D; but she's back today! :) but has training again! D; what bummers, right, peeps? sighhs. anyway, i wanna thank Sasi, Hema & Pris for everything! so today, did nothing much. but i did well for my arts, for me. :) i paid attention to my work though, not the teacher :) anyway, chatted with Pris & Sasi. sighhh. god, i miss him. nd to Bby Eera, thnks SO much. i ♥ you! thnks for helping me with him, well, EVERYTHING that you've done. i really ♥ you ubber much! :') oooh~ yay! i just got "barkat jumaat". i'm sory to the non-malay peeps reading. haha. i dont know how to say it in english! hmmm. :) eventhough it's only $2, it's still money. hehe! nd now i'm eating a banana. hahah! :P oh, my hair is in two. like, two ponytails, yknow? hehh. :) anyway, i'm gonna post up some photos here, alright? :) it's from today's. enjoy, Darls.
i miss this :')
the thing on our heads were necklaces, actually. haha :)
"i believe in love. because, i love you."
so there are the pics! there's another pic i ain't uploading yet. maybe a next time. hehh! *i have my reasons* . ahem. familiar, much? :) anyway, til' next time, adios peeps.
i ♥ you
`Selena Elliyann ; Dudette
what's meant to be, will be. ♥
Labels: healing heart?
what we could have been, 5:21 PM.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
♥ " Beyond words, I can not imagine what life is like without you. Your love is like a dream that is really hard to believe. Are you sure that you can really forget that girl? I really love you, for real, but is not it? This time, it's really hard to believe. Cause I'm young and weak to me too often fall into traps. How can a guy like you love a girl like me? " ♥
♥ I've fallen in love many times,but the best was falling in love with YOU ♥ .
haha .i love taking &making these types of lines . there really fun (: haha .
so i wanna say , ♥ i'm gonna start to avoid you . to keep things better between us . because i know that this is the only way for us . `im sory . though i love you , though this is wrong , i have to do this . ♥
♥ i love you . ♥
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what we could have been, 6:59 PM.
